On the Other Side of Darkness

By Myric Andreasen

I like to be seen at my best

Always there in gatherings 

in nice dresses and heels

I wear my best smile everyday

To show how happy i am with the life i chose

My husband's love is beyond what i needed.

So I gave mine to him with no boundaries

I have many friends, and i love my job

Which makes life perfect and i am satisfied.

But At night the feeling starts changing.

In silence, the darkness seemed vast in space. 

when the lights are out and nothing to see.

all I could feel is me. 

There was a discernible  fear for what to come

I think of future and i realize time is becoming my enemy.

Time will take away my youth, my caring mother, my friends and lastly my love.

The idea of being alone in an empty house nothing but memories that slowly fading in the southern hemisphere of the aging brain is heartbreaking.

I am not lonely but i feel alone.

Nothing in this world can save me, nor i can save someone from dying isn't that the truth?

It helps to believe i am just a passerby and this life is a training ground of yet to come.

Yet, these unpleasant thoughts taught me life is very short, so i want to love with purpose.

I hugged my husband and finally drifted to sleep, thinking what can i give rather than what i could lose. Time can have my tomorrow but it can never steal my "now".

Before i drift i whisper to my snoring love ever softly " you are the best and tomorrow I love you some more".